It's been 3 1/2 years since we were logged in with the CCAA. At one point that number was inconceivable to me but now it seems like a drop in the bucket compared to how long it could be.
Today I feel like that crumbling paint in the picture. The wait combined with lots of other things going on in my life is making me feel old and worn down. So much time has passed and so many things have changed. For the first time I really wonder if we can stick it out. No, I have not given up the dream but somehow it seems that the dream is just a dream. Right this moment I can't picture the happy ending.